Delayed Success.

Failures have their way of sending you into a dizzy world of your own. All that confidence you were storing up can be deflated in no time. Failures can sink you down to level zero. I mean, jab lagti hai toh, more often than not, zor ki hi lagti hai. This intense feeling of dejection, hopelessness, and disappointment is heightened when everyone around you is moving at an astonishing speed. I mean, there is joy in celebrating someone else’s success but accepting your own failure can be very difficult. It’s not easy to accept, that maybe, just maybe, you lacked in hard work and sincerity and it wasn't just your luck acting out or was it?

Failures have known to mark their presence in your life strongly. You may not remember every little triumph but you surely will remember your downfalls. Optimists talk about turning your down-swings the other way around by learning from them and moving on. But it’s also okay, to brood over it for days and not letting that anger die.

It’s okay to not get out of your bed for days and sport that unkempt hairdo at work. It’s okay to hide yourself behind a book or a bush when an inquisitive aunty sees you. It’s okay to go watch movies alone in this time. It’s okay to sigh loudly. It’s okay to talk to a tree, they listen. It’s okay to open that movie folder in your hard disk and watch endless movies. It’s okay to make huge tubs of ice cream your best friend. It’s okay to not tell your whatsapp status your current mood. It’s okay to stand under the shower and cry. It’s okay to listen to sad songs and cry some more. It’s okay to think you are the biggest loser this mankind has ever witnessed. It’s okay for you to be hurting in your own weird way.

But the next step to this can only be, I mean, ONLY be, recovery. Now or much later, life HAS to get better, whether you want it or not. It’s easier to want it, of course. Failure exists so that the nectar of success feels sweeter.

I may have fallen down many more times than you, dug a deeper hole for myself each time even, cursed the good while the bad just grew each day, lived in the fear of falling down yet again but I promise to try again relentlessly, a little better than before, each time, everyday.

Here’s to bad good times! :)